telling people what u feel actually u are blaming them.u are just telling your feeling that u are taken aback by their action toward yourself,but its so damn hurt when they just accused me that im blaming them and told me that i had never think that source of the problem is me,myself.

when u are always alone,no one to talk to for years,its really get me wonder if actually am i really exists in this famili?when everybody in famili were all at your side,u kept hurting me with your ignorance,glare without reason,u didnt even want look at me,talk?everyone were by your side,they had to take care ur feeling,they just follow the flow.im the only damn victim to get all the suffer from u.u ll never ever understand cause u never put yourself in my situation,how i felt when i had to console my own myself,all u can say is stop blaming stop blaming stop blaming DAMN ITTTTTTTT. i tried be patience patience patience patience and i ended up  be a real patient with no medication will ever erase those scars. everybody must move on to change your own,how i got really damn jealous to those who can move on without felt even a bit of guilty by making other person suffered like shit before that. how u can be so positive when u already ruined another person life?

u know i keep blaming keep blaming with no end  cause i lose all hope to live,my brain gone numb.i had always to mind all people around me.i wish i can take out my heart brain lend it to u to hear to feel what actually i thought.of course u dont want to do those moron things,what the hell are u doing to borrow others brain heart to feel what they felt,its not ur business,mind